Last night I couldn’t sleep, I was so worried about what I was supposed to do about the whole college business. If something ways heavily on my mind, then the problem has to be solved soon or the longer I have to wait and think about it, the more anxious I get.

My dad was really hesitant on me even considering moving out for college. He was being really stubborn and kept saying that I’m his little girl and he doesn’t want to think of me going away to college. I don’t want to think of myself going away to college, but the fact of the matter is that I am. Living near the campus would relieve so much physical stress off me, and it will teach me how to budget and be more independent.

I think we’ve worn him down though, he knows that I will be able to excel better if I’m living near campus. I emailed the Housing Officer (a lady who helps you if you want to look for housing off campus) and she told me about how her daughters best friends parents were a really nice family and they had a basement apartment that they wanted to rent out to two non-smoking females, and that it would be the perfect location for me because its only a 15 minute walk to the campus and the bus stop is four doors down! So I called the lady and my parents and I are going to take a look at the apartment tomorrow evening. I’m hoping my dad won’t be too stubborn about out, and I’m really hoping that he doesn’t take too long to decide. I don’t want to loose the place to someone else because he took to long debating pros and cons.

I just finished writing the personal circumstance letter that I’m supposed to attach to my bursary request when I sent it in. I’m really hoping that I’ll get the bursary, because it would help us out a lot. I’ve always felt like a financial burden on my parents because unlike my sisters, I couldn’t work part time so my parents have had to pay for everything I need (such as clothes and shoes) or want (like entertainment). I also discovered that a lot of my medical expenses are not covered by OHIP. After surgeries, any physical aid (like a walker, wheelchair, or crutches) and pain medications come out of their pockets. Thats a lot of years of a lot of surgeries and a lot of money coming out of their pockets.

Last year, when my sister Kate was writing her letter for her bursary, she told me that you’re supposed to make it seem like you have it really rough and you can’t really afford college. I was just being truthful in mine. I tried to explain things clearly but I’m afraid that I might have sounded as if I was trying to milk it. The fact of the matter is that we do need the help that a bursary would offer.

If I get the Summer Student job, I’d work the entire summer (thats 11 weeks) 9-5pm, 7 days a week making roughly $10.50 (thats what my friend made last year when she had the job). In a single day, I should make about $84 (if my calculations are correct). $84 x 5 days a week is $420.00, and $420.00 x 11 weeks of summer is roughly $4620.00, give or take around a hundred dollars for deductions. If I lived near campus, I would have enough money to pay for my own groceries and my phone bill for 8 months, and that would leave me with about 500 or so dollars to spend on extra things – so mostly monthly bus tickets. I would be able to help my parents out in some way, so lets really hope I get the Summer Student job…