I never thought I would make it to the final camping weekend. I was almost 99.9% sure I would die of exhaustion, stress, and anger before I saw today. Luckily I didn’t, I’m still alive and kicking. I don’t know if I will be after the weekend, ask me on Sunday.

Last weekend was absolutely horrible. It rained the entire day on Saturday, and my body ached so bad I couldn’t even move. I had to keep going into my tent and trying to stay out of the cold and rain and get warm. I think I pissed off my boss and co-workers but I really didn’t care, I could barely move. Kate says its my fault for taking on a job I “couldn’t handle”.

Anyways, I quit my second job; which was working with a boy who has a developmental delay. I believe I put too much on my plate and just wasn’t able to handle it. Thats alright though, I’ve lessened the load and now I shouldn’t be too stressed out!

In other news, Harry Potter 5 comes out tomorrow. I’m pumped but slightly depressed since I won’t get to get it until Monday since I am camping and since I have a college tour that day anyway.

For those of you who celebrated Canada’s Day, I want to know what you did. Consider this another “delurking” task; tell me what you did on July 1st. I was at my boyfriend’s trailer with him and his family. We watched fireworks in the huge baseball field and then we watched more on the beach. The fireworks weren’t really spectacular, but I enjoyed it none the less. The people who hosted the fireworks even gave out cake that tasted really good.

Tomorrow I am back at work, so things might get crazy around here for a bit – or rather, dull. We have Wilderness Weekends for the next three weekends in a row, so it’s going to be crazy planning and organizing this week. I am going to work really really hard this weekend, considering last weekends attempt at really hard working didn’t work out too well. People still made jokes about the lack of work I was doing. So this weekend I am going to push myself more. I know I probably shouldn’t, but I need to feel like I belong. I have to feel like I’m a part of the team and that me being there is just as important as any of the other summer students being there. I am going to get a good nights rest and be there [at work] early. Maybe I’ll even get there before everyone else. I’d love to beat them all in and be sitting at the desk, already belonging.

Truthfully, I am nervous about going back. Things have undoubtedly changed. What if there isn’t any room for my ideas? What if they respect me less because I wanted a vacation? Actually, I didn’t really want a vacation, I just really needed it.

Ah well. I suppose this is how it’s always going to be in the work force. I’ll try to keep updating though! Don’t forget to delurk yourself and tell me what you did for Canada’s Day!